Socionics

        I'm new to socionics. I'm not sure what Ell-1Fi means, but I know INFJ from MBTI. The description is pretty accurate.My hubby read the description HERE and his jaw dropped - he thinks it's mostly me. He is shocked at how accurate these personality typing systems are. I've officially won him over. He is an EIE- ENFJ - I agree, it's mostly him. The accuracy of the Ennagram and MBTI  is what won me over many years ago (and now Socionics). I could talk for hours about these things, and now that hubby is excited about them I have a partner in crime! 

          I do wonder why some people can take personality tests and always score the same thing, where others, like me, often score differently. I'm usually an INFP or in INFJ, I've honestly given up trying to figure it out and labeled myself an INFx for now. I'm also wondering if I could be totally off and be a T, not an F. The only way to really know is to invest in a professional system. I think it would be worth it.

Favorite Fall Lipsticks

        Fall is the perfect time to change up your makeup palette and indulge in deep berries, warmer nudes, muted grapes and dark wines. I also play with darker berry eyes shadows and blushes. I personally think it's odd to rock a bright orange flamingo lip when it's freezing outside, BUT to each their own. :-) Do what makes you happy :-D

*TIP* Apply a lip primer before applying lipstick. 

This insures your natural lip color doesn't come through. 

I use TOO FACED lip primer.

Weight lifting and hormones

     

      I think I've gotten a little breakthrough. I've been lifting weights for awhile now, but I've been keeping them pretty light. I read an article a few weeks ago about common weight lifting mistakes for hormone balance. One of those mistakes was using light weights - me! So I upped the poundage and started using 10lb dumb bells instead of 5lbs, soon to increase to15lbs. This has literally changed everything! I went grocery shopping yesterday with no anxiety at all - I was at peace! Thank you, God! Like, not even a second of anxiety rushed through my veins! I didn't even realize this accomplishment until I was heading home because anxiety was so far gone I didn't even think about it. I simply enjoyed myself.

         Literally after doing a session with heavier weights my mood shifts completely. After a week of faithfully lifting weights daily, I actually found myself dancing yesterday when a song came on, and giggling and being silly again. I will forever believe everything is tied to hormones (that's why I get so upset over the forced fluoride in our water which hurts hormone production in many people)! Since reading the article, I've left dumbbells by my desk and I use them daily even while sitting. 

      I've done cardio since elementary school because I've been dieting since then sadly. I started having body image issues as a young child. I remember being in the Brownies and volunteering at a nursing home and an elder lady saying loudly, getting everyone's attention, "Why is that little girl so fat!" and I was so ashamed as everyone turned to stare at me. I couldn't have been more than 4yrs old - so goes the story of my life - I could give countless examples.

      Anyway that's another story for another day, but with all the cardio I've done in my life thus far, my mood has never shifted so dramatically as it has with heavier weight lifting. I'm truly excited to see what happens as I remain committed to weight lifting. No hormone cream, no pill, no anything has had this quick and dramatic of an affect in my life.

Pay Attention

        We've all heard actions speak louder than words. This lesson, as easy as it seems, is not always practiced easily - at least not for me. This season of my life I seem to be ready and willing to simply cut to the chase. I have a lower tolerance for games and hoping people meant something else. Like it's commonly said, people are always showing us who they are - believe them!

        It's usually best to give people the benefit of the doubt, but that does not mean we ignore what their actions are showing us. I remember as a teen watching an interview of Paris Hilton. She said, "I usually tell people what they want to hear and then I do what I want." The concept never occurred to me in that phase of my life. I began considering people's words and actions differently from that point.  I believe this describes most people, though we wouldn't admit it. 

         This also goes for people like me who idealize people. If I'm not careful I will ignore the signs and believe what I want about someone or something. Eventually, the truth is to big to ignore. It would have been better for me to note the signs and give them the weight they deserved. Age and maturity have given me more confidence in my own insight. I'm also learning to value my own time.
     It's important to not give yourself away mentally, emotionally, spiritually - make sure people are invested in you too. I've learned not to doubt what I notice. And I'm learning to put insights in the language of others. I'm excited to see how this plays out in my 30s. Having the ability and boldness to put your foot down and say, "This isn't working for me" is a powerful place to be.

Dreams

       Every morning I get up, get dressed, let my dogs outside and feed them. While they are outside I get my coffee and make my breakfast. After I let the pups in I take my coffee to my office where I sit at my desk check my e-mails and type my dreams. I used to write my dreams in a journal but even the shortest dream can take two pages to write out. I can type the same dream in less than 5min. in Word. I have over 60 full pages of dreams typed, not counting the many years I spent writing them in a journal and online in Myspace blog (Myspace? What's that? lol). 

        Dreams are very telling and I take them very seriously. I find wisdom and revelation in them daily. At the bare minimum dreams help release unhealthy feelings, ideas and stress that collect throughout our daily lives. These types of dreams are very helpful and healing as well. I'm a firm believer that we are spiritual beings with a momentary human experience. As our spiritual selves learn to manage and coexist with our human selves we start experiencing our best life. 

My foot update!

     While updating this blog I read a few of my "foot injury" posts from 2012. I want to give a quick update. My foot still hurts! It will most likely be this way for the rest of my life - I've accepted that. I will never buy Reebok shoes again! If you don't know, Reebok had a line of workout shoes called "Easy Tone" which had toning balls at the bottom. There was a lawsuit because people were getting injured because instead of rocking the foot forward like a rocking chair, people's feet, legs and hips were rolling left to right - as did my foot. I don't know what happened with the lawsuit (I think I was to late to join in?). All I know is they gave me my $60 back for the stupid shoes. Not much for a life long injury.
     When the weather changes my foot begins to hurt, if I do lunges my foot begins to hurt, if I wear high heels my foot begins to hurt. There is nothing I can do about it. Just last week I had to skip four or fives days worth of workouts because my foot felt like a knife was stabbing the injured spot.
     Most days I'm okay, but it will never be the same. If I sit wrong my foot hurts, if something puts to much pressure on it then it hurts again. Honestly, I'm a silent sufferer and my family doesn't hear much about it unless they ask. It's become part of my normal life and I don't think much of it. Anyway, for memory sake, that's the update. :-)