Happy 31st Birthday!!!!

Happy Birthday to me (7/25/84)! I truly hate when people ask me how old I am. I know I just posted it, but something about saying it out loud sends bolts of anxiety and fear through me. It seems unreal that I'm in my 30's. I know people say, "It's just a number", but it still makes me feel scared. CAN LIFE PLEASE SLOW DOWN, GEEZ! :-)

     Is there ever a time in life when you sit back, breath and just feel okay? When you're in your 20's you have the pressure of moving out, getting a solid job, getting married etc. When your married people start pressuring you about buying a house, having kids etc. In every season people expect you to be one season ahead. If you listen to these voices you will always feel wrong, you will always feel pressured and unhappy. I've learned to tune those voices out and just BE. But that doesn't mean I still don't wrestle with the pressure at times.

      I'm a firm believer in trusting the timing of our lives and allowing people to truly embrace where they are without pressure to be somewhere else. At the right time everything comes together as it should. And when it all comes together I always look back with disappointment and think, "Why didn't I just enjoy that season. Look, everything worked out!" Now, in my 30's I've noticed that I'm more trusting in the timing of my life. 

      Since the age of 21 till now I've gotten married, bought a house, became a mom to three fur-babies, worked in ministry, gone through countless personal/spiritual development classes, written, designed and published four books with many more on the way. Who knows what will unfold by the time I'm 41, but I'm excited to find out. God has been faithful - I wont start doubting now!
        Everyone's journey is different. Finally in this season of my life I'm coming into my own - not comparing myself or allowing others to compare me to anything or anyone else. I'm learning to follow peace in all things. I'm learning to find rest within myself.
        I foresee myself growing by leaps and bounds during my 30s. Marriage is a challenging situation many find themselves in lol. It stretches us in ways nothing else will. It causes us to flare up and shrink back all at the same time and teaches us about sacrifice, unconditional love, it holds a mirror up for us to see ourselves  - good and bad. It's wonderful and painful all at the same time.
          I'm so thankful that my hubby and I are committed to growing together as a couple and individually. It's not an easy road, but it is fulfilling and fruitful. I look forward to our lives going from glory to glory and victory to victory.